What Was I Thinking?
I have a close friend named Brian and we often joke about writing a book titled, “What Was I Thinking: A Real-Life Guide to Marriage.” Why that title? Because we each had reached a point in our respective marriages where our idealist views of marriage no longer made sense. Our respective marriages each had to wrestle with the following questions:
- Did we do the right thing in getting married?
- Were we being obedient to the Lord when we said: “I do?”
- If we were being obedient, then why had marriage been so difficult?
- Will we ever get out of this tough season?
My wife and I had to make a decision. Brian and his wife had to make a decision. We had to decide to either believe in God’s ability to redeem and shape our marriages or decide not to believe in God’s ability to redeem and shape our marriages.
A Biblical Decision
Abram also had a decision to make; believe in God or not believe in God. His decision would directly affect his marriage because God’s promise to Abram was family-centered. “I will make you into a great nation and I will bless you; I will make your name great, and you will be a blessing” (Genesis 12:2, NIV). After receiving such a powerful promise, Abram found himself doubting because, well, things had not turned out like he had thought. How could God use Abram’s family to bless the world when Abram and his wife were old and childless?
Later in Genesis 15, it states, “Abram believed the Lord, and he credited it to him as righteousness” (Genesis 15:6, NIV). Paul, writing about Abram, expressed in Romans, “the promise comes by faith” (Romans 4:16). How do we navigate the difficult seasons of marriage when we have a choice between two paths; believing God or not believing God? Abram and Paul provided the blueprint–faith and belief.
- Do you and your spouse have faith in God and his promises?
- Do you believe that God can provide forgiveness and a new start to a broken marriage?
- Do you believe that God can bring the right career path into your life or your spouse’s life at the right time?
- Do you believe that God will walk with you and sustain you as you grieve the death of a loved one?
We face decision making moments in our marriages on a daily basis and if we are to navigate our journeys well, we must choose to believe God and his promises.
The Result of Belief
Paul wrote these life-giving words in Romans 4:17 regarding what happens when we believe:
“the God who gives life to the dead and calls thing that are not as though they were.”
While the life we are looking for might not be the life God gives us, I have learned in my marital journey that God often gives life to dead marriages and relationships when we choose to believe him, his promises, and his power. So, when you find yourself facing a decision in your marriage; choose belief. Choose God.